WOW...I hadn't felt mood swings like that since I was a teenager...I wasn't depressed, because THAT I have definitely felt in the last few years...and I didn't feel angry, because THAT I felt pop up over and over again too thanks to the prednisone...this was, well, plain old PMS anxiety and weird kind of wired nerves/hormones raging...I felt like Mrs. Slocome on "Are You Being Served", saying, "I'm just in the mood!"!! I kept telling my Mom that and laughing, although it was more a nervous kind of laugh, almost like I was explaining why I was acting kind of crazy.
We went to see Dr. Salgado, my neurologist, which turned out to be one of the times I REALLY felt like saying "I'm just in the mood"!! He claims that I might NOT be having syncope!! UMMM...then what am I doing when I lose consciousness??? I'm sure as hell not faking it!! GRRR...I thought I was past these jerks thinking I was questioning me! I guess not...so my parents and I are looking into getting a heart rate monitor like the ones worn by people working out. That's show him ;-)
I HAD to meditate when I came home!! I hadn't done that in a long time, but I found one of my cd's and my cd-man and turned my light off and just zoned out for about 15 minutes. It was VERY resorative!! I felt 100% better when I was done! I MUST remember to do that more often!! I used a natural sleep inducement cd, which uses sounds of the ocean to match your breathing with...SO nice and peaceful!
HOPE HOPE HOPE tomorrow is a little calmer, but at least I know what to do if the nerves come back!
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